Lessons acquired during 2004 :

1- There is a purpose and a lesson behind every event that happens. And this lesson will be evident sooner or later.
2- I can learn from everyone. Every person has something to offer, and I will take care to benefit from that. It doesn’t matter “what” people think as long as I can learn from them, their virtues and their vices. Everybody I meet adds something to me.
3- There is no such thing as regret. Regrets can happen only when I let them happen.
4- Never take anything for granted. Every thought and fact has to be studied,pondered upon,and investigated afresh before I believe it.
5- There exist amazing people in Jordan,and I only have to look for them and be with them.
6- The skill of debating is a ture power. I am acquiring it, slowly but surely.
7- I have a piece of everything in life instilled within me. It is up to me to make use of this gift.
8- I will not let my limiting circumstances cage me. I will not be controlled by them or by the people who create them, and this is exactly how I win.
9- I should not expect people to “give” me much. or anything at all. I will learn from them yes,but they are by no means obliged to support me or give me anything morally.

I have nothing to say to you, not tonight. I am tired..I am sad.. and I don’t believe in you, I don’t believe in the world. My only faith lies in myself. I shall not be stung again by life. Oh, I probably will. But I will not be as fragile,I hope.

Many (I refrain from using Most) people find it a silly and very uneducated “trend” to read one’s horoscope and actually believe in it. I have a unique horoscope book, it’s old and torn around the edges. It has the most beautiful astronomical drawings and celestial bodies calligraphed on the cover. I use this verb,calligraphed,because these representations seem to me completely novel and more lively every time I look at them. Exactly like excellent penmanship, they never cease to astound me. Much like its contents, this book is a treasure, not only for the occult words its pages hold , but also for its distinct style and directing.
I think I got carried away in the course of describing my star book…

** 1 celestial, heavenly
of or relating to the sky; “celestial map”; “a heavenly body”

2 celestial, heavenly
relating to or inhabiting a divine heaven; “celestial beings”; “heavenly hosts”

3 celestial, ethereal, supernal
of heaven or the spirit; “celestial peace”; “ethereal melodies”; “the supernal happiness of a quiet death”

This is what my horoscope for today reads:

Partnership is emphasized in a dramatic manner. You can feel it closing in and want to embrace it as deeply as you want to stay independent. Your comments about commitment will come back to haunt you this afternoon.
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It amazes me so how true it sounds, and how genuinely it depicts the way I feel. Speaking of one other level of thought, I have such a sad recollection of last night.

One more thing….My heart beats 93 times per minute, I had a test for that today. My sister’s heart goes for a 100 beats, my mother’s for around 80. 93 93 93 93 93 93 93 93 93 93 93… my lucky number? or no… my unlucky number because when my heart ceases to beat those 93 bangs will disappear.

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I have just encountered this error message.Does it have any metaphysical implications? Does it foreshadow my annihilation? I have always had a clear belief that I will die young.