Big decisions, small decisions
There really is no way around it. Some times you just have to choose something and let something else go. It’s precisely like Pirandello said “Ogni scelta una morte” - Each choice is a death,and very much unlike Queen’s “I want it all and I want it now”. It just doesn’t function like that, Queen.
Lately I had to make a decision that should alter my priorities and my lifestyle for some time but before I finally made up my mind about it I just wandered for two hours, not doing anything, just walking, thinking (while trying desperately not to) and hoping some miracle would deliver me. Divine intervention, that’s what I needed to have someone right then and there making my mind up for me.
But providence did not reveal itself to me at that time, and there came no man with a long white beard to tell me “This choice is better than the other, O Tololy. Go for it”.
It was a living nightmare, nowhere as romantic and polished as I make it sound now. I sat on benches, got up, walked a bit, and sat down again. I closed my eyes, opened them, held my head in my hands, stretched back and forth, walked again, shuffled my papers, wrote things down in a notebook, put pros and cons and tried to balance matters out. By the end of that I was mentally drained, physically tired and the sun did not help.
This? Or that? But maybe this is better. No it’s not. But it could be, right? And that other thing is good too. What do I choose? Why is this so hard?
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June 16th, 2006 at 7:24 pm
I’ve been going through this same thing every day lately and it’s torture, I tell you. All the "what ifs" shuffling through the brain. I sincerely hope that both of us end up making choices we’ll be satisfied with…<br /><br />
June 16th, 2006 at 9:12 pm
<p>yes, its a thing we all have 2 go through, and unfortunately more than once throughout our life… this is how it is :)</p>
<p>sometimes it seems people think alot about smaller decisions and go spontaneously about HUGE ones..</p>
<p>i really hope u do something that would give u releif :)</p>
June 16th, 2006 at 10:59 pm
Thank you Beti and Lammoush. I appreciate the support so much!
June 17th, 2006 at 3:21 am
<p>The generla rule is:</p>
<p>If it’s not necessary to make a choice, it is necessary NOT to make a choice!</p>
June 17th, 2006 at 3:39 am
Although at times i would ponder my choices, but in the end whatever choice you make is good, because well: once you make it, there is no go back, so it has to be good! The idea might seem odd, but it if you think about it, it might make sense to you as well!
June 17th, 2006 at 7:54 am
This or that, eh? I’d say go with that.
June 17th, 2006 at 8:31 am
<strong>Peripatos</strong>: Aristotle used the covered walkway of the Lyceum, whenever he had a difficult issue to analyze with his students or peers. Walking, thinking, walking, theorizing, and, after that, keeping notes. He ended up with a great collection of books, and also he fought back cholesterol… I liked the fact that you did alike, and you will come up with a wise decision, even if it is no better than the other. Only simplistic ways of thinking invest on absolute false /right patterns.
June 17th, 2006 at 11:07 am
Sometimes logic says one thing,and intuition another..I go with my intuition without regrets!Good luck!
June 17th, 2006 at 11:09 am
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<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Tololy, You’ll never walk alone</span><br /><br />When you walk through a storm<br />Hold your head up high<br />And don’t be afraid of the dark<br />At the end of the storm<br />Is a golden sky<br />And the sweet silver song of a lark<br /><br />Walk on through the wind<br />Walk on through the rain<br />Tho’ your dreams be tossed and blown<br />Walk on, walk on<br />With hope in your heart<br />And you’ll never walk alone<br />You’ll never walk alone
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June 17th, 2006 at 4:35 pm
<p>No path will be perfect, so whatever choice you make, don’t give into the tendency to romanticize the road not taken later on.</p>
<p>If I was in your place, I would list the pros/cons of each choice. Then I would select the one that offers the most change, because that could provide the most stimulus.</p>