A friend of mine told me that my recent posts are chirpy. Since the start of January, and the piercing migration episode that I had, I have sort of picked up blogging again. I am not sure why this has happened, and I do not remember thinking at one point “alright now, back to blogging regularly. Break is over.”
And the truth of the matter is; I didn’t return after a conscious decision to do so. I just had things that I felt like blogging about, and when I blogged about them, you came. It was purely coincidental. For all I know, this might not last. I might not have “returned” at all.
When I said I am taking a break, I had decided it will be for at least one year. I had (have) things going on in my life that I imagined would drain my attention and I would not be able to communicate with anyone outside my GTalk list. I was feeling exceptionally down, defiant, liberated, and hostage. They were very dark times.
I still feel this way but I think that the more you push yourself to do, the more you achieve regardless of what your circumstances may be. I don’t mean to say that this blog here is in any way an addition to world heritage, or that it makes a difference in anyone’s life, but it sure has made a difference in mine.
Perhaps I semi-returned because I realized I had lost my fight. Perhaps because I realized I have nothing to lose, maybe things cannot get any worse and so, what’s the point of not blogging about them? It’s a fight either way, maybe documenting it will help. Brooding certainly won’t.
So, people who read this blog, that was my reflective thought for the day. Enjoy the chirpy phase while it lasts :)
You get sucked into the habit of blogging. I went through phases when I didn’t feel like blogging, or I just didnt’ feel like writing anything down. Now I do it daily and I try to do other creative things with my blog.<br /><br />By the way, I have you on my RSS feed and I think most people do who comment regulary and ask where you are. :P<br />
I can’t assume I know exactly what you’re talking about, but ever since you wrote that post announcing the break, I just felt I could strongly relate, and I was very happy someone was fighting that fight… I love reading your blog, I love seeing what your thoughts are evolving into, and at times, you make me wish I was anonymous myself… I have been so incapable of being myself on my blog lately and it’s stopping me from writing… it’s just suffocating!!<br /><br />I hope this chirpy phase lasts :) and keep on fighting tololy!<br />
The fight’s not lost until you give it up.<br /><br />In any case, I’ve got a present for you, but you’ll have to wait awhile to see it. How’s that for torture? Mwahaha!<br />
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<p>I still feel this way but I think that the more you push yourself to do, the more you achieve regardless of what your circumstances may be.</p></blockquote>
<p>That is so true Tololy,</p>
<p>I have noticed your increased activity, not only in writing, but you’re also participating in discussions elsewhere.</p>
<p>I guess, you wanted a change, and judging by what you’re writing, change is good. Many people are enjoying your writings. So why stop?</p>
<p>I know you were "Shut down" at some point, but that doesn’t mean your spirit will give up. So go on, and don’t give up.</p>